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This is it! This is the day that I decide every year what I am going to change and perfect in my life.  I have a head start on the norm. I actually started dieting the day after Thanksgiving and even though I have been off the diet for a week I have not gained anything back. I am down 2 sizes with only 6 more to go. I quit smoking in June and I have given up on the whole “I promise God I will stop masturbating” thing. It is impossible, I can’t do it and I know this about me. Of course I should excersise more, since going on my diet lifting a spoon to my mouth no longer counts as a bench press. I have cleaned, scrubbed, organized the townhouse for the big day. I am a freak in that everything has to be perfect for the new year. Even the cars, I cleaned those yesterday as well. Resolutions….hmmmm.

1. I will try to be more tolerant of John’s smoking. He has cut back substantially and I understand it will take him longer to quit if at all. I don’t want to become “One of those people” who hacks and gags at the smell of smoke. But it really does make me hack and gag, damnit.

2. I will stick to my new way of eating (it is really not a diet persay) and not go back to my old ways. I would like to be a 6 again by June.

3. I will stay organized.

4. WE will save everything we can so we can buy a house at the end of our lease.

5. I will not get a Myspace page even though work encourages it as a way to stay better connected to our students. I will not. I will not. I will not.

6. WE will pay every bill ontime and pay back those who have helped us through the last year. This is something else we have got a head start on but still have a ways to go before we are comfortable again. Being a one income family is too hard and I don’t know how people do it. The 3 months I was out of work was awful and we were not prepared for it like we thought we were.

7. I feel myself changing, growing, maturing. John has in no doubt been a HUGE part of this. I have always enjoyed flying by the seat of my pants, dropping whatever at a whim, jumping out of the frying pan into the fire… but he brings a sense of calm and stability to me and my life to where I don’t want to be flightly. I don’t have the urge to be insane. I want to keep some of my crazy though, so that is resolution #7, I will still be semi- crazy. I will always be a mental deep inside.

8. I will go to the doctor when my insurance kicks in and take care of everything I have let go.

9. I will be more tolerant of stupid people. This is a big one. I will have compasion for those who do not know how to dress or decorate. I will not yell at you and call you names if you cut me off in traffic, stand in front of me with 25 items when you are only supposed to have 10, dress your kid in a sundress when it is 35 degrees outside, let your dog run loose in the parking lot, pick your nose at a red light, trim trees in the rain with an electric chainsaw. Nope, I will be kind to you people. God love your stupid little minds.

10. I will never forget how lucky I am to be married to the most wonderful man in the world. I married up folks and I will never ever be good enough, but I can try. Every day, I will try.

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